Depression

 When it comes to depression sometimes you fall down a dark hole. There are days where it just feels like the end of the world.  Those days you don't want to get out of bed.  The days of where you want to isolate yourself and other days you are like love me love me now. Days where you don't want touched or days you want hugged. Putting stuff off. Eating feelings or not eating at all. People sometimes call you lazy and other names which don't make it any better.  We don't want to be like this. You get in your own head. Much lost sleep or sleep to much. The you don't know whether to bottle it up or talk to someone.  The crying about anything and everything because you are triggered.  It can be stressful.  Times where it is so overwhelming.  Feeling like you are spiraling down or on a rollercoaster.  The thoughts that you don't feel loved, worthless,  won't amount to anything, and a burden.  The self chatter that goes through your head. The feeling like we are alone in this. It is a battle every day.  Even when you do have people who care and love you sometimes it feels like they don't care. It isn't that they don't but that is how some feel.  You can have lots of coping mechanisms and not all of them work. It is trying to not give up even though inside it feels like you are dying  at times. If it's bad finding someone to talk to or getting some sort of help is important.  Sometimes we need help and need to swallow our pride.